Tuesday

Penitentials

Psalms 51:10-12 has been a life verse, well verses, for me. A Prayer for a clean heart, a steadfast spirit full of Joy. Recently, I have really been looking at this passage in it's context of acknowledging one's transgression and begging for forgiveness.

Psalms 51 is one of seven poems referred to as the Penitential Psalms, made up of chapters 6, 32, 38, 51, 102, 130, and 143. David wrote 51 and 32 specifically referring to his affair with Bathsheba and murder of Uriah, however all of them refer to confession of sin and God's forgiveness.

Looking back, the last post I wrote is more meaningful now than it was even when I wrote it, but I do have more of a follow up on my awe of God's forgiveness.

In light of God being all knowing, what does it mean to confess? In Chapter 32:5, David owns up to his transgression, and in chapter 51:4 he admits His sin is against God. Above any earthy earthly relationships, our sin is ultimately against God. This reality is crucial, because we see in verses 16-17 that ritual without genuine repentance is useless, and how can there be genuine repentance if we unaware of our separation from God? I'll speak for myself, but I am right there with David that separation from God is blatant, no chance of being unaware of it, it affects us physically. In 102:4 & 7, we see David's sleeping and eating affected.

"If you, Lord, should mark iniquities, O Lord, who could stand? But there is forgiveness with You, That You may be feared." 
Psalms 130:3-4

What a mouthful, what a reality check. All sin separates us from God, how can I put more weight on certain actions (based on my emotions that a certain sin is worse), without therefore putting less weight on other sin? All sin has separated us from God, and our only hope is that God has already forgiven us. He is all knowing, and yet He ran after us anyway? He continues to run after us, though He knows the future? The human in me trembles in fear that His patience is about to end.

I think of the Casting Crowns East to West lyrics:

Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness 
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me




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Bonhoeffer speaks to the contrast of cheap grace v costly grace, and defines cheap grace as "the justification of the sin without the justification of the sinner," pg 43, and that "Costly Grace confronts us as a gracious call to follow Jesus, it comes as a word of forgiveness to the broken spirit and the contrite heart. Grace is costly because it compels a man to submit to the yoke of Christ and follow him; it is grace because Jesus says: 'My yoke is easy and my burden is light,' " pg 45.

We are commanded, yet as Bonhoeffer says on pg 38-39, "Jesus asks nothing of us without giving us the strength to perform it...May we withstand out foes, and yet hold out to them the the Word of the gospel which woos and wins the souls of men"

This is the point, that God may be glorified. I don't know why, but he chooses to use us to reflect his glory, and to show the vastness of His love. Ephesians talks about this all over the place... to the praise of the glory of his grace (1:6), to the praise of his glory (1:12), that you may know the hope of His calling (1:18), because of His great love (2:4), He might show the exceeding riches of His Grace (2:7), You who were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ (2:13), He might reconcile (2:16), that now the manifold wisdom of God might be made known by the Church (3:10), to comprehend the love of Christ (3:18-19), for the edifying of the body of Christ (4:12), that we should grow up in all things into Him (4:15), for the edifying of itself in love (4:16),

This is a serious, important, significant call. We are forgiven, but this is not where the story ends. We are called to now be imitators of His great love (5:1) - Walking in love (5:2), walking as children of the light (5:8), finding out what is acceptable and exposing evil (5:10-11), walking as wise (5:15), redeeming the time (5:16), understanding the will of the Lord (5:17), being filled with the Spirit (5:18), giving thanks in all things (5:20).


"Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil...Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints - and for me, that utterance may be given to me, that I may open my mouth boldly to make know the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains; that in it I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak" Ephesians 6:10-11, 18-20








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