"Lift My Life Up"

The first thing I think of when I read this title is my homeschooling mom telling me not to end a sentence in a preposition. C'mon Unspoken.

I was listening to this song this morning, and for the first time actually heard the words.

I'm giving You control

I lift my life up

I give it all in surrender

I lift my heart up

You can have it forever

All my dreams, all my plans

Lord I leave it in Your hands

Have Your way in me

Take my life and let it be all for You

This break from school has been a constant battle with dying to myself. Not that I didn't struggle with it before, but now I have enough free time to reflect.

{I would think of myself as a reflective person, but most of the time I simply have an epiphany about the disfunction in my life, high-five myself for having this epiphany, then move on: I never do work on the actual disfunction. Why would I when I can simply push the accountability out of my life, busy myself, go to bed early, and sleep late. School will start, then I won't have any time to think about it at all. This is my sad little unconsious plan to never have to really look in the mirror of my heart.}

With that said, this plan in no longer unconsious (obviously, I'm writing about it). It's staring me in the face: the uncomfortable pruning knife from the Father that I know is the only way to experience His peace, if I could only take that first step. Is this growing experience a direct manifestation of God's Grace? Is the Holy Spirit allowing me to be anxious and uncomfortable as a way to draw me back to Himself? (Hint: yes).

These lyrics are my prayer, sometimes prefaced with the prayer "God change my heart to make this my prayer."

Join me in this prayer?