Lunch Date!

 

I have a lunch date with the fab Colleen - can't wait, especially since bowing out Gracefully with Celebrate Recovery...12-hour days get to me, no matter how much I want to believe I'm a hardcore workaholic. Why would someone want to be a workaholic? Well, considering that time, or amount of free time, is one of the most common excuses...if we take away all our time, don't our responsibilities go with it?
We play the victum: "I'm so sad I can't volunteer, but work is taking over my life."
We're insecure, so we start twisting our own thoughts to make ourselves feel better: "It's not that this person does not want to have a relationship with me, it's that I don't have time for them. The ball is in my court. I'm in control"
I was laughing with a friend about how candid I can be. I went on a coffee date earlier this week, and basically verbalized this above statement in the context of dating...and then went on about how I'm too selfish to date, referring to these mysterious guys that pursue me but I play hard-core-hard-to-get...it wasn't until we left that I realized I had conjured up this situation, of me refusing all these guys, in order to protect my heart. Being insecure leads to craziness which leads to being irrational (defined as: doing the same thing over and over expecting a different result)Fortunately for my future husband, I am all of these :)

"Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of owernship on us, and put his Spirit in our hears as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come," Corinthians 1:21-22

"...those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father," Romans 8:14-15